I'm Yours ! --- Jason Mraz

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's gonna to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment, maybe sing with me
All - ah peaceful melody
And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch on closer dear
And I will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
Please don't, please don't, please don't
There's no need to complicate
Cause our time is short
This is out fate, I'm yours

I AM FUMING !

It is my weekend and I normally enjoy my weekends. It has been so long since I felt this way, YES I AM FUMING!! Damn, does it look intentional? Hate it when my window doesn't have chinese character that I have to trouble Ben to type this and send it back to me, 赔了夫人又折兵 ! and I... * see photos *

Happy Birthday To "You"

You'll never know how many times I played this song in that blxxdy year.

You'll never know how much tears I've shed in that st*pid year.

You'll never know that I still remember you like this song .

But you are right, now I've stopped listening to all these songs

By the way, I thank you for writing me that email, yeah, that one asking me to consult a psychologist. *punch you* . You know what? I didn't consult one. Hahahaha. Well, I don't think you are one of my readers so you obviously won't know that I am wishing you but to those who know who am I referring to, please convey this message on my behalf,"

I'll Stand By You

When I heard this song few days back, I was quite emotional and I thought of people who stand by me (financially, mentally and physically) for all these years. I really Thank You ..

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Dont be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
cause Ive seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You dont know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you

So if youre mad, get mad
Dont hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well Im a lot like you
When youre standing at the crossroads
And dont know which path to choose
Let me come along
cause even if youre wrong

Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And Ill never desert you
Ill stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
Youre feeling all alone
You wont be on your own

Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you

Ill stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And Ill never desert you
Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you

Sentiment

This is my 600th entry for my personal blog. I am glad I've gone this far and feeling great that my readers do enjoy browsing my site. As said, the blog is mainly for sharing, almost everything but I do not like to share unhappiness events. For those who read and find it a little bit exaggerated, eg. how can someone has such beautiful life? Well, I take this chance to let all my silent readers out there know that I do have a normal life like anyone of you, there are ups and downs and most of them are just too personal for me to scream them out loud here.

At the beginning of starting this blog, it was suppose to be a diary (that's why I kinda scolded my ex manager in my 3rd/4th entry) and later on it becomes public as I have a few buddies who wish to know how's my life going on and get a little bit of updates here and there, yeah, to know that Diana is not dead yet after the SLIM 10 issue.

Later on, I thought it would be nice to share my ROM and wedding preparation experience with all the wedding couples and this blog becomes a place for my to store some of my memorable moments and the "growing up" stages. I then fond of baking and cooking and this blog suddenly becomes a little "makan blog"! I later received a feedback that my blog was too cluttered and I should systematize them so I changed my blog template, added labels for each entry and created another foodie blog - Sweetness Divine

So here I am again, how can I have a life that seems so perfect to everyone, I don't mind if you use the word "show off" but how? It is simple, just be contented. Don't always think that others are better off than you do, don't always get upset when you see piles of work and don't always peek at others and think you must do better than him/her. It will never end, if you've already decided to live your life and be contented, stop looking at others with a feeling of jealous envy and tell yourself, there are many people who are much unfortunate than you, he/she might be hiding somewhere cursing you like what you are doing right now and I bet you don't like them to do that. I am truly lucky and thank god for sending this man to life, who taught me how to smile, controls my short temper and stands by me when I need support and constantly reminds me that I do not look good when I am frowning. Everyone has their own personality, be it good or bad, the moment we choose to marry him, we have to accept for what he is but don't pampered him too much, when you think there is a need to sit down and TALK nicely, do so as communication and respect are the keys to blissful and solid marriage.

By the way, I am feeling honored to receive a few emails lately, telling me that my blog inspires them and reading my nonsense here somehow helps them especially when they are down. I don't know how but I am happy to know that most of my readers have positive thinking towards their lives and they are just as "xinfu" as I am. I always hope I can communicate with my readers, especially those silent readers from overseas. I do know that you come here regularly but do give me a chance to know you too, if you have a blog of your own, drop me a line at my email : koala_bare@hotmail.com and let me know how did you come across my corner.

Last but not least, do you know that it takes 43 muscles to frown and only 17 to smile ? So, just smile and

PEACE

I don't normally take nap but I did today as I was so frustrating with those contractors and my new neighbour, a typical BMW. Not only that, I woke up by the noisy created by those kids playing at the playground. I realise nowadays children don't play at playground, they SCREAM and SHOUT!

Don't get me wrong, we have yet to move to our new place. Talk about it, our new place is quiet and quiet and quiet. In fact, this is our main concern when we view all units.

The Criteria :
- SUPER QUIET
- Away from SCHOOLS
- Away from STREETS
- Away from PLAYGROUNDS
- Away from BASKETBALL COURT
- Away from BUS STOPS
- Away from MSCP
- NO young children on same level
- NO noon sun
- Mid Level or above
- Area >140sqm

I know I know, some of you must be thinking, I might as well stay in the mountain or somewhere in the jungle, some can even suggest to get some loan from loan shark to buy a ulu land to build my own nest.

BUT no no no, WE've FOUND OUR DREAM HOUSE. Here is the beautiful view from our living room balcony and our MBR. Arrggghhh..my blog will soon talking about reno reno reno and I am going to bore all my readers to death. Hahaha..

Daisy..Daisy..Daisy Bell

I always love this song, I learn about it when I was 8 or 9. I still remember it was Mrs Oh who taught us how to sing and she has great voice! I showed this clip to Ben. You know what, he started to sing a little ...*hehe*

Daisy, daisy
Give me your answer do
I'm half crazy all for the love of you
It won't be a stylish marriage
I can't afford a carriage
But you look sweet
Upon the seat
Of the bicycle built for two

I am so fortune to have more than this for my wedding..Haha..

Mission Impossible

..Zion..

I was searching some photos of 'teluk intan' from google and I saw your photo..You look very familiar to me and I clicked it. After reading the first paragraph, I sensed that something went wrong.. It started with remembered, selfless act, tragedy, fateful event, rescue team still had not found his body!

I was shocked, my mind was blank, I wasn't thinking and I grabbed Ben's hand.

"Honey, I am not concentrating.. he.. passed away?"

I just couldn't believe what I was reading and I clicked on the cross button on the upper top right. It took me 2 days to come online again to search for your news. Yes, something happened to our dear friend in Moreton Island, Queensland last December.

Zion, I sent you a message long ago when I saw your photos at Friendster but did not receive any reply. I think you probably don't remember me, the one you sent a Chinese New Year Card to in year 2000, teluk intan. But I remember you, the one who suggested to exchanged emails and gave me your mailing address ( some address of a palm plantation) before I came to Singapore. I never expect to say Hi again this way...

In your devotional diary

“I believe I am born for greater thing” than merely getting a job and earning a living

and the next thing..

"THE family of a Malaysian-born man missing off Moreton Island yesterday spoke of their pride in their son's heroic final actions as hopes of finding him alive all but evaporated.

Zion Kerk, 25, was last seen assisting a young Korean woman in Honeymoon Bay on the northern tip of the island at 3.40pm on Wednesday."

Shame on me to learn about this after a good five months. Because I didn't log in to my friendster to read those bulletin or I am not socialise enough? Whatever it is, I've decided to delete my profile from Friendster as I really see no reasons of having one. Everyone knows it is meant to be a 'friends connection' thingy. I do have lots of 'friends' added into my list but so what? I can see my very best buddy( from convent) visiting singapore but never even bother to ring me for meet up, not only one but at least 3 of them! At the same time, seeing almost everyone met up for gathering on special occasions and I honestly felt left out. I am not whining or pointing fingers. I know that's because I'm no longer travelling back to ti or maybe I forgot to send birthday wishes. Whatever..

摘星 Star

Ben told me he likes this animation, the content of the story and the song. He downloaded it (6 years ago) and showed it to me (even before our courtship), I like it so much and here I am sharing it with you :

p/s : We've seen Meteor before, back in Teluk Intan in 2002.
Ben was calm, unlike me..I almost shouted it out but Ben stopped me and said," Make A Wish.."

All About You - Mcfly

My mood is great while listening to this song and I even found the chords for Ben to play for me. Any guitar players around?

It's all about you (it's about you)
It's all about you baby (it's all about)
It's all about you (it's about you)
It's all about you

Verse 1:
Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smile, it's all about you
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too
Said you'd make my life worthwhile, it's all about you

Chorus:
And I would answer all your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles, it's all about you, yeah!

(Guitar solo)

Chorus 2:
And I would answer all your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Yes you make my life worthwhile
So I told you with a smile
It's all about you

It's all about you (it's about you)
It's all about you baby (it's all about)
It's all about you (it's about you)
It's all about you baby (it's all about)

我真的受伤了

窗外阴天了音乐低声了
我的心开始想你了
灯光也暗了音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了
电话响起了你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎麽你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了是你变了
灯光熄灭了音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了
Original : 王菀之

Leslie Cheung

今生今世 张国荣

Before I could finish singing this song, my eyes were filling with tears..If you happen to be one of his fans, you'll know why I blog about him today. Yup, is his 5th death anniversary. I still remember when I called N and told her about his death, she thought I was joking because it was April Fool and how I wish this wasn't the truth.

hope you love the songs I've chosen for today.

追 张国荣

小明星 张国荣

Is Leap Year

Well, as above. I've been waiting for this day to come as it comes only once in every 4th year. I kept wondering if there is any mummy going to give birth on this day, most likely there are but what deeply sadden me was

" Attention, CODE BLUE in NICU "

Lousy

For those we wonder why am I still blogging at this hour? I was suppose to be cuddling with Ben at Mandarin Oriental, but we are at home! I was feeling a bit lousy these few days and having spotting. Aiks...mood swings...don't ask me why, just tell me why... *frown*

Way Back Into Love

Happy V day to everyone ~
Why am I choosing this song? Ben and I have been listening to this song for the past few days and we ...ahem..still feeling like we are courting couple *blush* and really hope all singles can find their way back into love..

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

Exhausted, Happy, Contented, Mellow

I'm feeling Exhausted, Happy, Contented, Mellow...

Because we COOK and we CLEAN

Because today is the EVE

Because we are ALL TOGETHER

Because everything is PERFECT !!

Dedicate to you, N

Health at Work

When I received Email from Nuffnang about this upcoming Advertisement --->HPB Ambush Asia. I didn't really take note what was it until 12midnight.

I saw the advertisement, yeah, top right hand corner, below the birdie. Like scary movie preview, right? Scare the hell out of me! Then I CLICK IT of course.

LOL but they are true stories happening around us. Especially the first story, I was ::almost:: like that. Mistakes 'pop up' every 2-3 monthly and I admit that I nearly drown into the pool of depression due to high level of 'peer pressure'.

Thank GOD I am out of there and protected now. Hahaha

Daniel Chan 陈晓东

ST : You're right about blogging this fellow, I liked him soooooo much during my Secondary school days to the extend I could go to KL to watch his stupid 歌友会 when the next day exam paper was Bio. Well, I cheated my mummy that there wasn't any exam.hehe.. The best part is : used the wrong camera and all the photos were 'gone case'. Hahaha..

He, I mean Daniel Chan, reminds me of someone. I started to like Daniel Chan because this someone likes him and they both sound alike. That's why I never blog about 陈晓东. But it has been so many years, although I won't be so generous 大方 to say '比我幸福' but I still wish that someone all the best.